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HELLO

"My, is this perhaps Daoist magic...?"

GOODBYE

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[there is a squeak of shock, and then some convoluted wriggling movements, like a worm trying to figure out the best way to escape with dignity intact.

finally, the lump turns in Soo-won's direction.]

Soo-won...?

[yet another drawback of the blanket... not being able to SEE]

[recrowns]

Mm-hmm.

[ a soft little hum of affirmation, and he will reach out to place a hand on the tallest point of the blanket where the voice was coming from... he assumes that is her head. ]

It's alright.

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[imagine i said she is doing a headstand for some reason... jk that is her head... She bows a little, like a sad little earthworm,]





Is it too late for me to pretend to be Elysium...?

[throws their tallest cyoa member under the bus]

[recrowns]

If you would like to pretend, I won't argue with you.

[ he can be as indulgent as she wants ]

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[MORE SILENCE.... as she seriously debates this, then she shakes her head]

...I am already hiding. It would be shameful of me to run away as well.

[recrowns]

Is there something so wrong with being shameful? Surely it'll only be temporary, knowing you.

[ but he'll lift his hand from her head then, sitting next to her. he probably brought her a blanket already... he'll keep it on his lap instead of double blanketing her ]

... would it help to speak of what happened? Or to have a shoulder to rest on?

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[soo-won cute.... your double blankets....

she does make a small, amused huff at that. heartened by soo-won's opinion of her, as someone who does not know shame (she carried him during their first meeting). and yet, if only it were true (she carried him and threatened to do weirder stuff)...]

...It is kind of you to offer. [everyone is so kind to her... here and in that other world too. though sometimes, to her eternal guilt, it felt -- ...

she should not spurn kindness. at the very least, soo-won is not being moved by an inexplicable past to come to her aid... he is simply here.]

I was merely... This will sound very silly... But I -- am someone who has lived a very treasured and sheltered life. So I cannot help feeling afraid and helpless, even though those are the last two things I wish to feel. It is rather frustrating...

[recrowns]

... I think that when first begins their journey to understand the world, it is easy, if not expected, to become disheartened or scared. [ softly, because he knows that he's seen this before. in lili, in particular, but it must've happened to yona too. (and he knows as well that is his fault.) ]

To be so well-loved... isn't it fortunate? What a beautiful life you may have known, to feel as though everyone experienced the same gentleness. To realize otherwise must be shocking... but isn't that testament to your own kindness?

[ to have wished for otherwise? to think that everyone must be so equally blessed? ]

Coming to terms with otherwise... is difficult. But I hope you are not too angry at the you that didn't know or the you that is struggling now...

It is that kindness and idealism that ought to guide your steps forward, after all.